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the abyss was never meant to be gazed into
how we discover unknowns and how it can make us feel is the human experience!
you ever let the excuse of not knowing hold you back?
we are always equipped enough to move forward, whatever forward looks like.
"I don't know if I can lose weight"
"I don't know how to get the job I want"
"I don't know how to find love"
"I don't know who my real friends are"
"I don't know how to best spend my time"
"I don't know how to manage my finances"
"I don't know what I want"
"I don't know what to write about"
absolutely anything loooool
My dad was playing FIFA career mode. He lost possession and conceded a goal. He didn't know what to do. He tried to not think as much. He found the space, relied on instinct, relaxed, found an opening and scored a goal. He can think too much at times which can impair his decision making.
Bit of an abstract example but I think it's relevant enough. We all can sometimes make do with less thinking and more living. Yes, sometimes you should "take a touch":
But you can’t be overindulging in our thoughts
we underestimate the power of our instincts, treating them as something that is too primal, to be left behind in the time of cavemen.
I believe how we move through this life sends all kinds of signals, whether we like it or not. And that ultimately determines how people receive you and treat you.
Two candidates. one job opening. Equal in their experience, barely anything between them from a professional standpoint. One spent a lot of time researching the company, practicing answers for scenario based questions, also prepared some questions about the company. The other didn't. intentionally. So that whatever they say is organic, an original thought. In the hope their responses are not based on rehearsal, but how the moment feels, who the person is that is asking them, what they recognise they need as they discuss the job.
Both didn't know what to expect. the former tried to anticipate. the latter prepared to embrace. Personally I prefer the latter approach of moving through life, because it leaves more space to be present in each moment as it comes. Even if it isn't the most surefire or reliable way. It feels the most exciting to me, when things come to you that wouldn't have otherwise.
I would hope the signals this way of life emits may also help me be surrounded by those that align with my values. In my pursuit of surrender I can meet others also along this path, behind and before me, to help and to hold onto.
To not know is to be free. Because knowledge hasn't shackled you down to a specific way of thinking yet, and you are open to allowing yourself the experience of learning. Maybe with some mistakes. But those are the kind of lessons that are more likely to stick with you than someone else's instruction.
I am not speaking of not knowing anything. That is infantile. That is dangerous. That is asking to be exploited if the wrong folk catch wind. I'm referring to more specific contexts, when we would let this gap in our knowledge and understanding worry us or consume us. I prefer to view it with excitement. Like a blessing. A new journey I can embark on with a childlike spirit.
Like when as a kid you would discover something for the first time and have such wonder! But this time round you're an adult and can momentarily forget about all the things that try to weigh you down. Indulging in the wonder once more, embarking into the marvel of unknown, ready for whatever it is that lies ahead waiting to be revealed.
the greatest discoveries of our civilization have come from embarking into the unknown. and I believe so much more can be discovered within ourselves!
if we are willing.
this felt different to your other articles it's like you had more fun with it